nothing...

sore throat again....very painful this morning..sleep not very well..this is my recently life...sianzing......
well...accompany my daugther since last thursday until last night...I can felt that she is so happy...as what loei told me..when i was around..she can sleep longer...more comfortable..and nicer..sorry again to my litter charmaine..daddy unable to accompany all the time...but daddy promised you daddy will love you forever...give u watever u want..really...love u dear....
last sat look at my daugther...wah...realised she really growing up...and..i realised i really got a daugther...she was 2years old..called charmaine tew...hahaha...and i can't believe she is so beautiful...so charming..and so so cute...hv to tks to loei...luckily she's gene is better...haha~~
feel slpy today...hv to back earlier....

network..

life is like penetrating india market...the more deep you go, the more u dunno...there is really alot of things we dunno...especial how to control your emotion..i think i am very...very emotional person...i use to be a person who are really unable to control my temper...but at the same time..i also very minded how people look at me..so..gradually...i start to learnt how to control my emotion...and finally..when i step into my works...i became very nice guy in my department...because i dun like to hv enemy....i wan very happy on me...so...i learn how to building ur own network...few years back..i know alots of frens...however..i think the ages is getting older...pressure getting higher..it thus i starting to inpatient again..well..haha~~ i still hv to learn..from the beginning..and explore....how can i manage it last time...

haha~~

last few days tiring for some personal things..finally these 2days can have a good rest..no mood to write but blogging seems like already become one of my daily habbit...even write up something also shiok....hehe...realised that y ppl love to keep updating thier blog...is a very window for u to spreading your emotion..u can throw temper...u can write whatever u want...haha~~ 2days later will going back to malaysia...for my lovely charmaine...also my lovely loei..
father these few month very down...his body condition is alright..jz nid more rest and more talk...trying to spent more time with him...well...recently he seems bettter compare to last few months..again...it's time to count down for my baby...another 29days...or lesser..hahaha....cracking my head to thinking over his name..hmm...as well as english name...haha.....what a happiness father....

2nd...

jz now got call from agent, thier client was very positive to me..mostly likely they will go by 2nd wedding dinner to me..hmm..married life are always difficult..want me divoice with smn and find a new partner and married....well...hv to be seriously consider again...otherwise next year hv to find again..how do i think about trading house le...they always bully by thier clients..like what i bully trading house also...but the interesting things is the base is zero...u hv to 1 leg kick for everything....how ah....hv to go back and ask dua peh gong liao...really no idea.....well...today office is very abit strange...toooooo quiet.....hopefully nothing happen la...

black white talk...

heartbroken means ur heart kena washing up side down by urself or some1...am i been hearbroken b4? or does me heartbroken other ppl? hmmm...i can't lier to myself...indeed..i did heartbroken other ppl...n of cos..someone also been heartbroken to me..anyway..after the 'heartbroken incident' happen...i learnt to know..the life is fair...god is fair..dua pek gong and guan ying mah, even alah also fair...when giving something...u will lost something..what u r doing is treat it naturally...time can proof everything..when the time being..things will be clear...sometime explaining will make the problem worst..sine nobody is going 'listen' ur explaination...so..why not jz let it be....when everyone are getting cooller down...jz thinking the next....when u still alive...there won't be any 'last' or 'ending'....all the best la...frenship....dun treaten this relationship as bullshit...

normal ppl normal life...

few days ago..an agent called me up and asking why u wanna leave since you working here for 8years time..i was stundded and in fact i don't really know how to answer this question, yeah! i been here for 8years...i love this company...even i don't really like my job now...i keep telling ppl pls dun fall in love with ur company...in fact..i did it...this is most horrible things in my life...and this is one of the decision that i won't regret until end of the day. even that's my life till the end...
actually recently alots of things happen..it makes me thinks that..when a person who claiming to higher post...does she/he need to sacrify? even she/he force to change...force to sacrify..of cos, there sure always have a choice..is depend on how u determine...how u balance up...that's a problem...
to me....am i really happy my current job? yes and no...ha~~ i also dunno y...if i single..i dun mind to work under this circumstance, i rather give up higher post and challenging, truely...i wanna become a ping min bai xing...that's my dream...normal ppl normal life.....but..what abt if u attached? hmm...interesting question....

work liao lo...

after resting 5days...today finally return to work....not happening..jz meeting...well...it is a good day to me...today for call from agent...quite pai seh as i was in the meeting....anyway....i still got my own target...i actually was a very greendy person...i wanna be nice guy..i wanna be rich..enjoy my life...somehow...still got stucks in front of me...hv to kill them off so i can really enjoy it.....
today is my cousin wedding in malayisa...he is the first grandchild (guy) who married in my mother's family...wondering what happen right? haha..is regardless feng shui....well...ur hv to believe feng shui....is real...is true...all the best to my cousin...!!!! :))

3分之1 的人生

活了29个年头， 也过了人生的3分之1，很快哦， 即将步入30而立的一年，感觉童年的青春就像是昨天一样，我虽没真正珍惜， 但也没有白费， 我建立起了我的人脉，却不知该如何运用它，我一直在考虑我的下一步该如何， 但总是没法定下来， 希望能快点定下目标，我的人生才没白百浪费。 然后呢！应该为我的3分之1的人生写写报告了。哈~~我的人生，做对了什么，做错了什么，什么该改进呢，什么是我的下一步，什么是我要的， 什么是我的方向。。。好多的什么阿！

我觉得，人生有很多的阶段，每个阶段都回遇到，看到，及学到很多不一样的人和事， 这也是我们所谓的成长。每个人的成长条件也许可以很接近， 但一定会有不一样的地方， 这是我们所应该包容和体谅的，无论是如何完美的爱情， 友情，亲情，都需要双方无比的的包容和体谅，而每一段情呢， 都会有一段互相琢磨的时间， 这段磨合期间，你也许会发现对方的忧缺点，而缺点往往会占大多数，这就要看大家如何的琢磨了。当磨合完成的之后， 大家才会享受完美的‘情’所带来的快乐和幸福。就好象大家一直在寻找的那一块遗失的拼图一样，而我呢，我和蕾还在磨合着，接近完成。哈~ 我想， 我还有另一块拼图，我的学恩，和那个即将出世的小家伙。。。

tmr working liao lo...

ooo...resting 2days at home...even abit bored but still feel very genki in the way...well..tmr is new day..hv to come back my spirit to work...talking so many abt my work..sometimes i also abit sianing..ha~~ but boh bian la..work is a part of our life..hmm...dunno what happen tmr...actually quite a lot of things needed to be prepared...but..the timing seems like still not wtih me yet..hopefull can finish by next week...
ah...heard that one of my colleague decided to leaving...even she is the latest who thinking to leave but she is the first who leaving...really glad to heard that...she finally leave..when me turn...when me turn........~~~~~i wann leave....today i revised my resume...thinking even i wrote up how wonderful of my job...but it is better to mentioned what i want of my job..hopefully for news next week la...heeeee..~~ all the best...to me....wahaha.....

team team team

一个好的团队是如何构成的， 好团队的架构是如何形成的， 每个人都有每个人的方法， 世界上有许许多多非常强的团队，这些队伍拥有最佳的人员，最佳的能力，最有效率的工作态度，但，最重要的，不外乎是需要一名能御驾这班精英的领导者，领导者的能力不是由他的工作表现而被选定的， 而是他说具备的如何带领团队，如何的有能者居之， 为才善用， 就像是汉高祖刘邦，虽非人中之龙凤，却可以击败楚霸王开创后世人人称颂的丰功伟业， 到现在好是有人以汉人自居。
jz now saw alots of photos ...cheng...jaimie....lily...joe...hmm...these photo bring me bk to last time..when everyone is around...so happy..also remind the how the otc been build...unstuffing the goods from container...every shipment 200ctns..this is not trying to hao lian..but in fact..i was juz too miss that time..even fire fighting everyday..even acceptable...understand it cannot come bk...while the time being...i will leaving also..good team is build up by time...by love...by everyone..this is my wishers team...

spirit to..

sometimes i was jz wondering why i cannot wake up earlier for work...this is very costly if take cab...btw, recently i started to wake up earlier...take mrt n bus to work..finally i realised what happen, i think i got some sickness...especially when peanut around...my spirit level will going to bottom..when he is not around...my spirit is up up up..so...the conclusion should be i dun wan..or i dare not face him...mayb i jz want to escape from him...to release my soul..i am too tention when facing to him...well..i still trying to recovering this problem...is gd that knowing the problem so can overcome it..seems like he is my ke xing after joining spl.hahah~~i will..i will overcome this problem..i surely will..and i surely will leave this industry..i am sure...

finally..

Finally...took more than 6hours flight and finally..home sweet home...the hot weather in japan caused me sun burn as well as our litter mushroom queen...sick some more...cough...a bit fever but should be fine..well..loei is working so have to wait her at home loh...these few day never sleep well...almost everyday hv to wake up at 5am ....shake man...just wondering why i can stand on it...anyway...we are survive...miss u dear..hehe...
well..recently did rejected few offers from agent...reject until i quite paiseh...but no choise la...sacrified for my litter mushroom queen...well..thing will be happen if it is really happen to u...so..not so worries about my next step since i believe..when the time for me to change...sure i will change...at least....in shimano got alot of memories that will be always in my mind..this time went to japan...meet alots of old fren..even just few minutes..i was so tough that they still can remember this bangla...ha~~but is quite pity that can't meet ong san...hmmm..well...fate la....
however huh....our litter jo seems like quite ...eh..not quite...is very long time never update her blog...she is so quiet...hmmm...maybe something was missing in action...haha~~
ok la...tmr going to work!! gambatte!!!!! also need to apply off n liew..go bk malaysia...miss my daugther so much!!! muack!!! heee..

think think think~~~

has been almost a year nv been japan...and more than 4years never been suzuka..this time round..the feeling is not bad in the way..study trip is always boring and tiring..anyway..since boss asked us to do so lan lan we have to do also...not only for them...we also can learnt alot..hope so...unfortunately...the timing is rush in sic and thus i cannot meet my ong san...well...call to him just now and we sharing each other..how's going especially the job...i think in the world he is only one who can really understand me and really know how to cheer me up...find the job slowly...no rush...be patient...everything will be fine...the worst thing i go bk malaysia la..if really really cannot find...not die or live..yah..is true...ha~~ i think many of u did talked these to me..but...in the way..i dunno y..i really love to listen his opinion...he is the one who i really respect and appreciated...i learnt from him...talk like him...do like him...of cos la..i am not him..he is more greater..even now he also kena...hahaha...ong san....taka care la...c u in scm...hopefully...hahaha...
well...yesterday is one of my colleaugee last day....well...even i am not really like him but somehow...i have learn something from him...hopefully...one day i can plan like him...actually this is what i lacking..or i was unwilling to plan ahead...lazy pig...i think most of the time i am just too lazy to think about my future...honestly...well....i had started to force me to think since last year...i can't jz dumping my life like shit...i hv family..i need more and more plan....become me...become someone who is really great and capable...at least i have to become a good husband and good daddy....:) cheer up!!!!

japan trip...

it was always happening..after my india trip last week..i will continue to my another trip which is fly to Japan Suzuka..not much feeling...doesn't excited..actually i am abit down..i think after i married...everytime when i going to oversea...i will really really miss my wife seriously....the feeling is getting stronger after my charmaine borned...hooo...maybe this is call love...maybe i already fall down to my family warm hug...wish to kiss my wife n daughther indeed...somehow..not only miss them..but also wife is going to deliver soon...hmmm...she is really tired..still need to work...need to worry abt her husband career...need to take care of family...this is all i can't stand...maybe i am too soft..sorry my dear...loei...i promised..i will love u forever...forever...

钱2

今晚和蕾本来想看Mummy3, 但因为时间上配合不来，结果就看了梁导的钱不够用2，影评人的观后感可说是恶评如潮，无论如何，我们还是选了这部电影。 因时间关系，我们错过了影片首10分钟的开场，不过对于我来说，这无关紧,因为这部电影比起其他如具有梦幻色彩的新加坡本土电影来的更加实际，本人也不是专业的， 只是，电影情节也常发生在我身旁，辉哥的演技在 （钱2) 里发挥的淋漓尽至，木纳的他把大哥的角色窜摩的很好， 而国煌感觉上就像演回自己，梁导这绿叶就有综合的作用，还有如萍姐，明珠姐妹， 还有不得不提的黎明这位老戏骨，母亲，就是那样伟大，她是电影里的灵魂，只会付出，不求回报，甚至把所有的所有都给了下一代，对于刚当爸爸两年的我来说，这绝对是感同身受的， 这部电影其实也点出了下一代的教育问题，也许政府因该考虑恢复‘morale’了吧！另外还有对于‘孝’的诠释，在很多英语环境里长大的人来说，这是多么的陌生， 也只有在后悔之后， 在能真正了解什么是‘树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在’，还有歌词，句句一针见血，刺进了每个人的心理，最后，还有对现代人的解说，自私，圆谎， 找借口，统统都来。
这部电影呢, 煽情却让人动情，夸张缺也不是真实，梁氏笑话， 好电影，是能够打进人性，打入人心， 感动。

1st day

ooo..after 2 weeks in India, today finally i came back for work..evcerything seems no big changes but feeling abit strange..well..cannot tell what happen..because i also dunno..somehow recently my mouth is very li hai...talk anything anything will happen...haha..so better not talk so much on these...recently sent alots of resume...already felt that really cannot stand in this company...somehow..in the way..stil waiting....good news is coming soon..but jia lat...i write so obviously...dunno who will be saw in someday..
well..first day...seems alot of things hv to done ...as boss not around..think should be able to make it la...hehe....

bye bye gurgaon...

yeah! tmr will be going back to Singapore...can meet my daugther....and my wife...i also dunno what i am doing for past 9days...thinking so much of bad things...:( maybe recently really stress alot...not only work but also family...as well as personal..just wondering why i cannot really optimize my mind....can't think positive..well...that's life...how to overcome it..have to depend on me....no one can help..

ha...today VP called me and wash me up side down...dunno when she bcome so streeful...like peanut...maybe she no that mean but she did...do as a team...i know everyone is busy...but...haha..dun talk...later got misunderstanding...

this week hv to bring my wife for check up...my baby 8months already...2more month..i'll become father again....congratulation me first la...

next week....dare not to think next week..what a streeful week...haizz...me is stress..colleague is stress...boss is stress..everyone is stree.....GARHHHHHHH.....left me alone and give a break....

tks

本质

这辈子，我做错了很多，我忘了当初的我是怎样的一个人，多年以后，我慢慢地回想起来， 当初的我，很孤独，孤僻。。。而我也喜欢孤独， 我忠于我的想法， 我的追求， 我不奢望我会是夜空中的的月亮，我只希望能够成为那颗星， 闪烁， 但不刺眼， 微弱， 但却源远流长，和我的性格一样，低调，不爱出风头， 多年以后，进入的社会， 进入了人群， 慢慢地， 我抛弃了我， 我盲目的追求， 追求别人的想法， 也许是当初的孤独让我害怕而辗转的只会依附他人的想法，变相的成为没有主见，只会点头说是的人，渐渐的， 我忘了当初我是谁。

虚荣腐蚀我的人格， 贪念吞噬我本性，随和也被自私取代，人吗！ 本质就是这样， 而我也应该这样，我的理性被我的野性所主宰，这些年来，我都无法依照自己想要得来进行，随后，我变得很情绪化，大喜大悲，有时连我都不清楚，我的下一步该如何。

这让我付出了很大的代价， 我失去了很多很多，我不能怪任何人，也不知如何的怪自己，悲~我变得很悲观，也让我失去了工作上的竟争力，而工作上的瓶颈让我对很多事情无法适从， 也许我真的需要的是一个新的环境，让我可以从新站起来。

怎样的能好好规划我的人生，我的家庭， 我的未来，如何让我回到我自己， 如何让我掌握。 也许， 只有天知道。。。。。

leadership....

yeah man...still left 2more days...time fly...i am here almost a week liao...do for nothing but at least got some infor can report to boss lo...notice tat this few days in office got alots of happening..now the office is very very low morale...really feel like demotivated...haizz..why always bad thing was happen in our office de le...since everyone js want to do to thier gd job...just trying the best..none appreciate never mind..but dun try to bullshit..i was really felt those ppl who really irritating...mayb they are gd..high post...but...they should try to understand what we nid...not guess...dun listen from someone...sometwo or somethree...doubt to us...this is really bad..
Everybody got thier own circumstances...when u bcum a leader....not jz thinking to climing higher post..or not jz think to kick out someone that u dun like...you nid to upgrade ur team to better....when talking a team...is not 1man show or 2man show...everyone is contribute where the goal is achive...hit or even overshoot the target...
well..of cos..at this moment..i am not a leader.....haha...
oh yah...to my dec 03..remember...no matter how....i'll always be here with u...support u..boh bian...we all borned in dec 03...

silver day.......~~

so down...malaysia lost the gold metal...tot that at least there is a 'dragon strike tiger fight' but eventually....haizzzz...~~our player totally cannot compete to lin dan...he seems like amateur...too stress? well..past is past, anything must be look forward...hmmm..today went to few places..eat dehli to south dehli...especially today visted a bicycle street called chandni chowk..hmmm...is really interesting...can u imaging over the street there is more than 400shops..but only 15shops is retail and the rest is wholeseller? well..no doubt..one of the shop owner told me these...this street is similar to philippines kaphur (forgot the spelling), but this side is bigger...heard that there is another similar street in south dehli...next time feel free will visit...oh yah...hv to prepare the material...when can finish le........i want to escape...

today..

lalala...finally for digital cam...finally can take some photos..otherwise tmr dealer visit dunn how liao...so far the function of this dig cam quite good...response also fast..hehe...today settle up some job..send some e-mail...report to boss...ha~~ quite busy huh...but today quite late take the lunch...thinking if staying here...1 day hv to spend 30-50 jz for meal...wah...expensive man..but boh bian..for healthy...for safety..
oh yah..today olympic badminton final...malaysia vs china...malaysia boleh...lee chong wee jia yu!!!

gurgaon shopping...:))

dunno y...after botak left, seems like he brought all the rain back to Singapore, the weather become dry and hot...anyway...who cares...after return from office, today first time when to shopping in Gurgaon alone, initial abit kia kia because yesterday is India 61years old..so everywhere the security is super tight...scared got bomb...somemore the mall that I went is the india largest shopping mall...called ambeance mall...walao...!! ...well, few months ago i been here with botak..alot of shop haven't open, but today..wow...almost 80% are rental out...haha..lucky today...the mall got indipendents day's sales...ai seh man....eh..bought a digital cam...as mine one already broken moreover next few days still need to visit dealer..so....boh bian la..but is a new model....around 300...got free gift..a watche and a 1G SD card..so buy la...since needed...besides also bought a leather shoe...cheap cheap man..only S$30++ nice design...hehe..vp..next time come la...mostly all the world branded are here....hehe...

haha...bahasa...

today my botak are leaving, go bk home sweet home...sianz...leave me alone today...faced 4 walls...sianzz x 10...luckily today met 2malaysian during bf.....haha...when fist i saw them i already notice they should be from either singapore or malaysia...t-shirt, short pants, with carry newspaper..haha..this is icon for us..too bad..they malay..so hv to using my almost rusty's bahasa malaysia talk to them...hahaha...perhaps they can understand..:P..this is the 2nd time i met malaysian in india...1st time is in delhi...Lotus Temple..they are a group of malysia students..study medical in india..haha...so happy to met ppl from homtown..wish to meet more la...hv to work liao....

peanut butter..

it almost 12.00 in singapore already...time fly..1 day gone...today mi n botak talked alot..has updated him the office situation...feeling like the peanut has back 2-3 year ago pattern...prata and prata n prate...non stop prata..every sec prata...haiz...recently jz feel that he changed alot..but ..haha....in chinese there is a sentence...the dog cannot change the habit to eat the shit...maybe he thinking that he has sacrified and fight alot for us already..y no one appreciate to him...so i think these few days he will remain moody...else his split office plan was pending....ha...not going to guess..this is non our buz n our responsibility...alots of happening these few days..but doesn't think too much these few days..mayb already realised think too much also cannot change the fact liao..
seems like month 7th many stucks..alot of us kena washing...hv to ask my mum pray hard tomorrow....really..sometime hv to believe on this...

dehli..

3hours ago...finally arrived delhi...very tired, bcoz last9 went back to malaysia and came out today..moreover my charmaine is crying whole the night :)) she is denied to give her a candy..but when i think deeply...i realised that actually she cying is not bcos of candy..is bcoz she miss us very very much...yesterday when we bk..mum told me sometin that caused my tears rolling in my eye..so touching...remember on sunday when we go to singapore..everytime loei will make her slp b4 we go..but when next day....when she wake up and after that she stand infront the door...not cying but said bye bye to her parents...mimi bye bye...papa bye bye....wow...i really really...dunno how to describe..but i really appreciated she's understanding...:(( to hv a daugther like her...i dun hv any regret liao...anyway...today when came here... dunno y...i can't even close my eye even i felt damn damn slpy...i miss my daugther so so much!! as well as my loei...she is pregnant...how wish i can accompany her and charmaine...how wish i no need to worry our future...how wish...haha..so many wishers...when can come true le...

机遇，天时， 地利， 人和。。。

看着熟睡得恩， 带着不忍有无可奈何的心情，昨晚，我和蕾又回到了这里, 还记得前几天接了那个电话之后, 他的邀约让我这几天来心理总是犹如十五个吊桶打水-七上八下的，当然，心理还是有几分兴奋且期待， 一直以来， 我都很认真地考虑这问题，蕾总是说我只是一时之气， 而我也是这样认为，因为内心的我仍然存在着一份难以割舍的感情，一份牵盼，一份期待被认同的盼望， 也许是命运作弄吧！ 无论我如何的努力，决也无法达到他的要求， 我想是他对于我的期望太高了吧，我真的希望是那样的，这样安慰着我自己，只是我并不知道， 所谓的标准， 是根据个人（还是他个人？）还是整个团队。
如果有一天我离开，会是怎样的一个情景呢？应该没多大改变吧。 我常说，公司不会因一个人的离去而有很大的改变，日子还是要过，时间也不会停留。这是事实。很多时候，要走要留也半点不由人啊！时机永远是改变一切的重要元素，还有两个小时。

老石头随笔

每个人的内心都有一个底线， 当有人或事踩过着条底线的时候， 一些意想不到的是总会在这时候发生；
有好有坏， 但坏的还是居多，我不能够容忍有人一次又一次的当我是扯线玩偶一样，任人摆布。 我微笑不代表我能容忍。 今天和朋友谈了很多，从公事到私事，发觉原来外在的一些并不是那么的完美，对的时候做对的决定才是更重要的，现实很残酷， 但现实也很美好，就看你如何对待他。 残酷的现实会让人更加的坚强， 美好的现实让你能有憧憬能更好的规划未来，一时的残酷能得到坚强的你， 就看你如何看待了。
我其实很喜欢发牢骚， 很喜欢让每个人听我发牢骚，我是个直肠子通到底的人，不会掩饰我的言语。 但慢慢的， 这种方式让我一次又一次的受伤害，我曾想过人是为自己而活，世界不会因你的改变而有所改变，不过现实嘛！就是要改变，因此我的表面功夫做的愈来愈好， 哈! 而有所谓公关关系很好。
最近情绪很不稳定， 很有那种山雨欲来风满楼的感觉， 不知何时会爆发。 昨天的电话让我的那股‘想要’的冲动的火苗又被点燃了， 也许应该考虑考虑的， 男人嘛！三十而立， 四十而不惑， 五十而知天命， 六十而耳顺。。。哈哈！！ 不想到了所谓的七十才开始， 那时人老珠黄， 谁还要啊！
今天是百年难得一见得日子， 08 08 08， 好吧， 就让大家， 定发定发定发！

wonder man.....

wondering that life is it must be suffering alots of problems...den u can enjoy the hapiness...seriously....i understand we need comparison..den can know what's bad..and what's good...many ppl talk about life...everyone gave their point of view...but end up...what is what?? what is life? this morning talked to a taxi uncle..he drive as a part timer...he owned a house in Tioman and every month he will go there to relax...wow!! what a wonderful life..but..is it really that wonderful? what's his family? I understand he is happy with currently..but does he because due to some reason? what's he short in his life?hmmm..nice topic...

wedding dinner.......:)))

hmmm...so far today is quite smooth...no big issue today....boss request all can done....hehe...this afternoon just thinking my agents seems quite long time never call me up liao...den my phone suddenly ringing..walao...they ask me to eat wedding dinner....haha...is a wedding dinner that i attend b4..den i said ok lo..but quite hard the ang bao money is not very good..hehe....when knock off..in the bus..haha...the wedding organiser suddenly called to my hp...asking whether still work in same company or not...bla bla la...den le..he suddenly whether interested to attend wedding dinner not...offered me AM...hahaha..i said c how la...let's c first..all the best to me la..::))

all the best..

shit...just now i wrote all cannot post...dunno y..maybe due to month of 7th...many good brothers around..so better dun write too much....sorry about that ah......so heard that i may going to japan again...hmmm....thinking to spend more time with my family..but may not able to enjoy liao..but luckily got replacement date la...hehehe....today...full of shit again..hai...not mention la...since so many shit already...:( oh...this weekend hv to go bk malaysia..thinking some way...hehe..u should know my way...haha.....all the best la..

engineer

nowaday was quite busy to preparing the material for my technical training in India..too many things need to prepare..bicycle...tools..parts...and more....walao....make me like i am really a engineer...even i am admin student...:))
i forgot to writing something...i remember this morning le...why ah..think my age not allow me to think too much...hehehe....anyway...today going to JP with loei again...as usual...we went to Kiddy Palace...i bought a pillow for my charmaine...heheh...she growing up liao...the small pillow that we bought last time also can't fit well liao..nowaday ah...parent's money is most easiest to earn liao...small small think 20dollar....walao.....but boh bian la...this is parents act..hahaha...

bkk,,,,

recently dunno y feel so sleepy..maybe at night so many activities liao...hv to massage my dear's legs...put the massage creams..also play the game..thinking of my job..my financial...so sianzzzzzzz....anyway...today joanne inform me a good news...my TARMAC finally come liao...hehehe....next step hv to build up my parts...so shioks!!!
oh yah...this weekend my gals in office will going to bkk ...dunno how far they can go...char siew bao already said she dunno how wild and crazy she will go..musroom and da bao also plan to buy whole bkk to singapore (richer than siao long bao????)
also my dearest siao long bao...do take care when u coming back la..hv a pleasent flight.....hehehe....

sianzzzzzzzz.....

yesterday slp around 2am...so tired..because hv to help up my dear loei to her assignment which due today..however..can't help much..only helping her to typing some notes...HA~~~ slpy today..no mood to work..feel like want to go back malaysia...hai..my charmaine fever..sianzzzzna......who can help me..

jjw8892

last week went to service car..walao eh...paid up 500++..then the gal told me next 40k km service could be upto 800++++...walao eh...really tak boleh tahan to feed the car...monthly installment...road tax...insurance...services...maintainence...hoooooo...boh bian la....got family..need a car...cannot borrow everytime la....anyway..this coming sep will be 2years..still left 3year installment...be patient...everything will be all right!!! no y...because i borned dec 3....hehehehehe...happy go lucky....galz..so u know y i wanna buy 8892 liao mah?? hahahaha.....but today dun strike...because today i dun buy...amitaba...

office day...happy day..

again..still dunno y today i am so happy when i wake up..feeling like everything is gonna b all right...hehehe..! but when reached office...walao eh....many blacky ...jlee girl still worry when the disneyland can move in and thus fever..kleong le..so excited..seems like she used to it the wider flat plasma tv...vlim still worry the npp...only myslelf so happy...hahaha..seriously ..dunno y....but jz now very fedup on the rack we bought..sianz...take half n hour to fix 1 and there is still 5 more...den still hv to clean up the MY store..dduno when become mine...bicycle le...india le..walao..but still happy la...hahaha..

facing down...

last week went to check-up....when come to scanning, suddenly realised that my litter tew is so so shy....unlike his sister...his face always facing down...so already 7months..we still cannot see his face clearly...haha....his sister is always 'show off' her face to us while inside mother stomach...recently my litter charmaine has started to shown her potentiality....haha...as well as good habits...ah..my lovely charmaine..anyway...tks to dearest loei...to give me such a wonderful childs...i promised..will love you forever...and forever...and forever...and my chilrens...:)) loving you..

alamak..

last week i made very very idiot thing again..forgot to put the pipe to the toilet and thusing kitchen flooded again..hai...:( why i so forgetful...hv to appologies to my landlord ms vp and she's cousin...hmmm...felt like want to digging a hole....alamak....

yah ah lah....

dunno y today office evey1 so down...included me.....ms J fall sick...Ms VP nightmare...Ms KL felt badly when she saw his 21inc LCD...ms ang lai koh n teriko san busy for their forecast n india...what abt me? Stress from boss...my new baby...missing my litter charmaine..oh my god..what happen to my office today...? oh yah...only 1person very happy..guo jing guo da xia...still felt happily so many ppl wanted him to riding thier own brand bikes...hmmm...same ppl diff destination...when me turn? hohohohho...

盛世 II

今天在电车里， 看到很多的景象， 让我不得不为了盛世下的牺牲品而摇头叹息。 人们似乎忘了所谓的礼及尊重。年轻的黄金一代， 国家未来的主人翁， 却为了能够坐的舒舒服服，为了能够有个位子苟存， 而装聋作哑，装睡，让那些白发苍苍的前朝重臣， 或是孕育下一个黄金一代的孕妇们，撑着拐杖及身怀六甲的肚子站在他们面前， 他们的无视让我感到心寒，更可恶的是还有一些父母也教着他们小孩一样的方法，我想， 若连这最基本的也无法做到， 未来会是个怎样的世界呢？建议电车公司与其让广告公司独占整个车厢，， 还不如把那些位子的告示牌加大两倍，有需者坐之吗。还记得10几年前， 政府所提倡的礼貌运动，绿化运动，现在在哪里呀？ 礼貌狮和绿化蛙，多么想念呀！！

盛世

在一个国家愈来愈富裕的时候，甚至乎成为了所谓的发达国家时，人们的无论是物质上，还是生活上，都已步入了一个很高层次， 但人心灵上层次， 却随着心灵以外的满足而往往被人忽略。但这个发达尘世里，我看到了一个又一个例子， 让我不得不思考着， 也为了这些人而感到悲哀。微尘般的我们造就了史无前例的盛世，却让很多东西成了盛世下的牺牲品。观点不在于值不值得， 而是为何不将之保留呢？

又是女儿

刚打电话回家， 女儿昨天发烧了， 突然又有一种很想马上冲回家的冲动，想看看她怎了， 虽然妈说她已经痊愈了。 但内疚加上心痛的感觉还是不知不觉地涌上心头。 真他妈的想说， “爸就回来了，你等等哦！”虽有千百个不愿意，但还是不得不。。。算了， 还是那句话， 现实是多么的残酷的呀， 爸妈多么想你呀!
妈那天告诉我， 我们兄弟近来改变了很多，多了一份顾家的感觉，因为有家了。 还说了句“手抱孩子时，想起当初父母时”是句福建话， 意思是说当我们手里抱着自己的孩子，就会想起当初父母在抱着我们时的感觉。这句真是绝呀！

目前幕后

今天完成了新产品发布会， 虽然现在是轻轻松松的坐在电脑前，但还是掩饰不了内心的疲惫。 如果疲惫的内心夹杂着满足了喜悦， 那也无所谓， 但感觉上就是少了这种满足感。也许我是个人的虚荣心在作祟吧，少了幕前的工作，感觉就是不一样，无论如何，少了这份满足感的同时， 我却获得了另一份归属感， 就是幕后的筹备工作， 就像是回到了家一样， 这也是我一直以来所追求的，少了分曝光度， 决让我有时间思考如何把企划做好。虽然少了老板的加持，却是我所要得， 这， 才是最重要的吧！

感情两个字！

有个朋友在感情发生了些事， 她觉得男朋友不了解她，不体谅，男朋友也觉得她变了，变得不像以前的乖乖女，当然吗！人是会变的，但很奇怪的是，很多人都不愿意接受这种改变，很多人都想把自己的一套套用在对方身上，把对方设想成自己所要求的，硬是要对方接受， 也许吧，人是那么的自私， 谁能无私的付出呢？当我们发现自己内心的自己想改变的时候， 有多少人可以为了对方而忍着，而能够为对方忍耐，他的限度是在哪儿呢？而让自己为对方而忍耐的又是什么原因呢？ 对我而言， 其实里头所包含的， 不外乎是感情两个字。而感情又是如何建立的呢？我所呢，是许许多多的泪水的汗水，试想想把感情的感字拆开，是咸和心，泪和汗都是咸的，把这两样东西放在心里头，就成了感字了。而情字，是心字及青字组成，如果你有注意的话，青字是由一，十二及月组成的；在一十二个月里，用所有的泪和汗所所付出的， 才能算是感情哦！ 所以嘛！如果我那个朋友看到的话，我想应该可以对你现在的感情有所开释吧！ 共勉之！

喂！ 转弯咯！

现代人的步伐好快哦！ 吃饭快， 走路快， 看书快，写字快， 快的让人窒息了，但， 在大世界里头，无论你是老石头还是小石头， 都无法改变时间的洪流，‘快’的步伐， 企业也是一样， 再也没有什么可以一招闯天涯了，所谓的老字号也都纷纷换上新包装， 呵呵， 我可不是想写企业论文， 只是发现很多人与事， 为了赶上时代里‘改变’的步伐，都纷纷一窝蜂的求新求变， 大家都害怕跟不上而最后惨遭淘汰。是这样的吗？也许吧！但是， 大家是否有发现， 在大家所谓的求新求变背后的意义， 一个个所谓的创新，开创自己的人生， 很多时候，都不是跟着自己的意念所走。所以说吗， 千千万万不要盲目跟着大世界，有时，想想大家自己内心的小世界吧。还有啊！ 有时，勇往直前是好事，但该转弯的时候还是要转， 别盲目的冲，快， 享受失败，是人生的阶段之一，看过一部电影里头的一句话， ‘前方是绝路， 希望在转角’与大家共勉之。

India

I never expected today i will become a sales..travel around the world...many years ago..i really can't imaging one day i will working in Japan, taiwan and Singapore, to me, these 3places are only for those high class person...i am not smart enuf...not handsome enuf..but i am much hapiness than other...hmmm...seems like count down for my singapore life...few more months later there may have all the blakies surrounding me...sound scary......:( dun miss me too much!!!...just possible..not confirm yet..

停先生

办公室来了不述之客， 它有个很特别的名字， 叫‘停电’， 停先生把所有人带到了阴沉的黑暗中， 虽非伸手不见五指， 却也让人有点措手不及， 虽只有短短数十分钟， 却也让我突然间感觉很冷静， 让我想起了那天，决定把信丢出去的时候的心情，感觉我的决定是正确的，但最后，我还是留下了， 原因不是那多少% 的调薪，而是这群再也找不到的团队， 乔安说的对， 在这里， 除了那群同事外， 到底， 还有那些能让我停留不走的呢？在公司里， 我的价值是什么？ 很重要吗？ 我想他也说不出一个所以然来， 尤其是他那爱理不理的态度， 感觉我是武器多过员工吧。
（办公时间还有空闲写博客， 我也真够‘吃力’的。）

septic arthrictis; 10:30

10 years ago, when i first time to do medical check-up, the doc already told me dun take porks, organs,beans, seafood and beans made food....because among my age group, my urine acid level is pretty high, so is better dun take these food...however, i am wondering if i give up these food, what can i be? a humen or a molk..sooo...i doesn't care much about doc advise muc...finally....few years later...i am kena what i suppose not kena among my age group....'arthritis', remember my 1st time to suffering these is when i went to KL to meet my fren.....i went 4days, 1st day ok but the rest of the date i was laying on the bed because my knee, my foot is damnly painful...i cannot walk..can slp well...walao...this is horrible experience...after that on and off...on and off...well, until today i still never stop to taking my favorites food....hehehe...so...yesterday it came back again...this time is my knee....the painful never while i writing my blog..now hv to wait my wife to buy the medicine to me this afternoon...sianzzzzzzz.....no matter how..i still thanks to my arthrictis...so i can enjoy 1day holiday :P so today i can sleep until 10:30am..because this time the painful doesn't work when i laying on bed..already almost a year never felt so relax like today..weekdays have to work...weekend hv to look my litter princes...hahah...wonderful 10:30am...

garlic

suddenly feel like want to write something about garlic,

why i put garlic as my title..hehe...not because i love to eat

garlic..I still remember my 1st time to take garlic was when

my college, my fren force me to take den i take, garlic..i just

thought garlic is a very special food...likes eggs, it's not consider

a meat..but not really like a veg..must garlicg is much more special,

because vegetarian not taking garlicg, the reasons behind have alot

...most of the ppl said is because garlic itself is too 'sharp', it will harm

your body if you are vegetarian, is that true? i also not so sure....

by the way, dun u think that garlic is looks like a humen? white

of the skin, have tissues..marsel...ggggiiii...dun think liao....oh yah...

tell you what, in japanese, garlic is so called 'nin ni ku'...'nin' mean

humen, 'niku' means meat..so..may thinking actually quite..hmmmmm..

hahaha...ok la..these type of geli geli thing dun talk too much..later kena...

oh yah...1 more hour i nid to go back hometown liao loh....i will leaving

my small box bedroom this weekends...hehe..guys...hv a nice weekend..!

无题

孤独的在这四方盒里，面对着墙壁，一阵苦涩涌上心来。
等待，是为了未来的成功？ 还是从头开始。我没有多少
个29年可以从来，我想做我要的，一切都是那么的自由的，
我需要成功。
其实我要的蛮简单的， 一间屋子， 一辆车子，一对孩子，
一堆钞票，很难吗？
一夜致富的大有人在，我会是那一个的。 相信就有：）
努力吧！

Weekend liao loh!!!

Finally is Friday, tonight have to rushing back to Malaysia to see my lovely daugther...:)
We are missing her so much...How wish i can return to Pontian...open a small book shop...
everyday...reading books..go back...dinner...rest...so nice..ppl may think am i going to retired?
haha...I wish too...3years plus in Singapore..learnt alot..saw a lot...think alot..but tired....the city
never sleep is too tired to me...haha...
no matter how la..for the future...hv to work here...in fact i am quite envy someone also...
everything is so smooth to them...they no need to face bad den they are always good...good
in luck...good in mood...so siok!!!!

Again..office...life...lie...

Somehow, i felt that today office is very quiet...i wondering why and i realised that because the office without something..without my laughs..my jokes..and my teammate....haha..nowadays working in office like jail..talking ppl will making small report..laughing will kena complaint..doing will kean washing up side down and u still dunno y...hmm....i very envy someone who can pay afford to the job...agueing with superior....creative....this is what i can't do it...before until now...because i doesn't like to argue with someone..and i am abit lazy...:P...I lazy to come out my idea because always kena rejected...well.... i hate my job? Not really..i love it so much...i even sacrify my last high pay job...i use to it..but...in the deepest of my mind...as a man..i still wanted to be like a man...good job...good pay...can easily convince ppl...can give good suggestion...ppl willing listen to u...haha...i wish too...

HOH SEH LIAO LAH!!

actually...i dunno why it happen...i wish everything can re-start but i can't...how to change? how to overcome....wish all the best to me...blessing me to overcome my problem....seriously...i always thinking the solutions...hai...:(( i just wish my wishers can come true...my bad luck will go away....my playful charactor can be deduct abit...my job can stable...my baby is heathly...my wife is heathly..of cos my parent...my brothers sisters..nephew..nience....everyone la..

bad luck bad luck go away...good luck good luck come to me...hehe....

时间老头

上个星期刚去了朋友的婚宴， 很开心，看到好久不见的老朋友，有的正在计划结婚，有的已经排期结婚，哈！ 有时想想，时间这老头还真会玩，从没有到有，从单身到两人一起， 人生到生人， 再从两人到单身， 有到没有， 时间老头在打转着每个人的一生，我的人生呢？也没想太多， 感觉好像是已经定了路线， 只要跟着走就好了， 当然， 我还没资格说人生。 现阶段的我还是一个为了生活， 为了家庭，为了自己的年纪不轻的人。。。
时间老头， 快快让我发达啦！也别让我一直发福下去。。。：）
老婆啊！哈~可爱的蕾还在为她的考试而努力，加油哦！ 老婆！！
小石头

学恩

学恩学恩！ 叫爸爸！！！！！！女儿就会‘爸爸！爸爸’哈！！ 女儿是我一生最大的成就， 乌黑的头发，大大的眼睛, 健健康康， 笑容可爱，人见仁爱，所有我和蕾的爱拼凑成我们的学恩。
蕾和我在外地工作， 每星期只能回家一次，无尽的爱只能在每次见面的时候宣泄，让外人觉得我们多么溺爱她， 但谁能了解呢？思念。。。还真够累人的！

蕾

从没想过有一天会和蕾步入人生的另一个阶段，想当初， 她的冷漠， 我想应该吓倒很多男人吧！慢慢的， 和她聊天，慢慢的进入她内心之后，其实，她也和很多女孩一样，需要爱人的疼爱， 有时她就像个小女孩，闹闹脾气， 有时小鸟依人，我的初恋，就是这样，在爱她， 宠她，气她中成长，发芽。
现在呢, 我们在为了即将在10月份诞生的他（她）而努力哦！ 还有我们的学恩。
蕾有一个很好听的名字叫秀蕊 （福建话‘收钱’的意思），很好意头哦！ 希望她的愿望会实现。
小石头

OFfiCe

When i getting old, i realised life is getting complicated. even i always wanted my life simple and nice. however, no matter how i hard manage it, things are still getting worst..Office environment is always like a war....still remember when intial i step into my company, everything is fresh and interesting but nowaday...after became an old bird....i has already lost the passion and patients,
it may due to my charactor doesn't fit for office life as i dunno how to play around the politics....hahaha...what to do? still hv to do...that's life...
luckily, i hv a group of colleague folks.....i dunno whether is because i (or my company(myboss??)) done too many good things on last life, this life i can met them, no matter they are still in the company or left....even some of them like pin ball..rich can easily moved twin tower to sembawang..low mah kai...botak...or ang lai koh...or .......lemon tree or peanuts....haha...so glad to know abt them...can cover each other kaching...haha...
office polytics?? hmm....no comments....as long as u in this office, u hv to play around....but i always belive that the office won't be affacted if without anyone...if we can form a good team...of cos, dun simply throw ur temper....be serious...dun laughing like hell..dun jokking around, company need a worker but not jocker....u can become manager...(oh shit!! this is what i always do in office) think i hv no fate liao...
haha..

i think i hv to applologies to someone who i always throw my temper to them.....even they are easy going ppl but..i still hv to say sorry..