nothing...

sore throat again....very painful this morning..sleep not very well..this is my recently life...sianzing......
well...accompany my daugther since last thursday until last night...I can felt that she is so happy...as what loei told me..when i was around..she can sleep longer...more comfortable..and nicer..sorry again to my litter charmaine..daddy unable to accompany all the time...but daddy promised you daddy will love you forever...give u watever u want..really...love u dear....
last sat look at my daugther...wah...realised she really growing up...and..i realised i really got a daugther...she was 2years old..called charmaine tew...hahaha...and i can't believe she is so beautiful...so charming..and so so cute...hv to tks to loei...luckily she's gene is better...haha~~
feel slpy today...hv to back earlier....

network..

life is like penetrating india market...the more deep you go, the more u dunno...there is really alot of things we dunno...especial how to control your emotion..i think i am very...very emotional person...i use to be a person who are really unable to control my temper...but at the same time..i also very minded how people look at me..so..gradually...i start to learnt how to control my emotion...and finally..when i step into my works...i became very nice guy in my department...because i dun like to hv enemy....i wan very happy on me...so...i learn how to building ur own network...few years back..i know alots of frens...however..i think the ages is getting older...pressure getting higher..it thus i starting to inpatient again..well..haha~~ i still hv to learn..from the beginning..and explore....how can i manage it last time...

haha~~

last few days tiring for some personal things..finally these 2days can have a good rest..no mood to write but blogging seems like already become one of my daily habbit...even write up something also shiok....hehe...realised that y ppl love to keep updating thier blog...is a very window for u to spreading your emotion..u can throw temper...u can write whatever u want...haha~~ 2days later will going back to malaysia...for my lovely charmaine...also my lovely loei..
father these few month very down...his body condition is alright..jz nid more rest and more talk...trying to spent more time with him...well...recently he seems bettter compare to last few months..again...it's time to count down for my baby...another 29days...or lesser..hahaha....cracking my head to thinking over his name..hmm...as well as english name...haha.....what a happiness father....

2nd...

jz now got call from agent, thier client was very positive to me..mostly likely they will go by 2nd wedding dinner to me..hmm..married life are always difficult..want me divoice with smn and find a new partner and married....well...hv to be seriously consider again...otherwise next year hv to find again..how do i think about trading house le...they always bully by thier clients..like what i bully trading house also...but the interesting things is the base is zero...u hv to 1 leg kick for everything....how ah....hv to go back and ask dua peh gong liao...really no idea.....well...today office is very abit strange...toooooo quiet.....hopefully nothing happen la...

black white talk...

heartbroken means ur heart kena washing up side down by urself or some1...am i been hearbroken b4? or does me heartbroken other ppl? hmmm...i can't lier to myself...indeed..i did heartbroken other ppl...n of cos..someone also been heartbroken to me..anyway..after the 'heartbroken incident' happen...i learnt to know..the life is fair...god is fair..dua pek gong and guan ying mah, even alah also fair...when giving something...u will lost something..what u r doing is treat it naturally...time can proof everything..when the time being..things will be clear...sometime explaining will make the problem worst..sine nobody is going 'listen' ur explaination...so..why not jz let it be....when everyone are getting cooller down...jz thinking the next....when u still alive...there won't be any 'last' or 'ending'....all the best la...frenship....dun treaten this relationship as bullshit...

normal ppl normal life...

few days ago..an agent called me up and asking why u wanna leave since you working here for 8years time..i was stundded and in fact i don't really know how to answer this question, yeah! i been here for 8years...i love this company...even i don't really like my job now...i keep telling ppl pls dun fall in love with ur company...in fact..i did it...this is most horrible things in my life...and this is one of the decision that i won't regret until end of the day. even that's my life till the end...
actually recently alots of things happen..it makes me thinks that..when a person who claiming to higher post...does she/he need to sacrify? even she/he force to change...force to sacrify..of cos, there sure always have a choice..is depend on how u determine...how u balance up...that's a problem...
to me....am i really happy my current job? yes and no...ha~~ i also dunno y...if i single..i dun mind to work under this circumstance, i rather give up higher post and challenging, truely...i wanna become a ping min bai xing...that's my dream...normal ppl normal life.....but..what abt if u attached? hmm...interesting question....

work liao lo...

after resting 5days...today finally return to work....not happening..jz meeting...well...it is a good day to me...today for call from agent...quite pai seh as i was in the meeting....anyway....i still got my own target...i actually was a very greendy person...i wanna be nice guy..i wanna be rich..enjoy my life...somehow...still got stucks in front of me...hv to kill them off so i can really enjoy it.....
today is my cousin wedding in malayisa...he is the first grandchild (guy) who married in my mother's family...wondering what happen right? haha..is regardless feng shui....well...ur hv to believe feng shui....is real...is true...all the best to my cousin...!!!! :))

3分之1 的人生

活了29个年头， 也过了人生的3分之1，很快哦， 即将步入30而立的一年，感觉童年的青春就像是昨天一样，我虽没真正珍惜， 但也没有白费， 我建立起了我的人脉，却不知该如何运用它，我一直在考虑我的下一步该如何， 但总是没法定下来， 希望能快点定下目标，我的人生才没白百浪费。 然后呢！应该为我的3分之1的人生写写报告了。哈~~我的人生，做对了什么，做错了什么，什么该改进呢，什么是我的下一步，什么是我要的， 什么是我的方向。。。好多的什么阿！

我觉得，人生有很多的阶段，每个阶段都回遇到，看到，及学到很多不一样的人和事， 这也是我们所谓的成长。每个人的成长条件也许可以很接近， 但一定会有不一样的地方， 这是我们所应该包容和体谅的，无论是如何完美的爱情， 友情，亲情，都需要双方无比的的包容和体谅，而每一段情呢， 都会有一段互相琢磨的时间， 这段磨合期间，你也许会发现对方的忧缺点，而缺点往往会占大多数，这就要看大家如何的琢磨了。当磨合完成的之后， 大家才会享受完美的‘情’所带来的快乐和幸福。就好象大家一直在寻找的那一块遗失的拼图一样，而我呢，我和蕾还在磨合着，接近完成。哈~ 我想， 我还有另一块拼图，我的学恩，和那个即将出世的小家伙。。。

tmr working liao lo...

ooo...resting 2days at home...even abit bored but still feel very genki in the way...well..tmr is new day..hv to come back my spirit to work...talking so many abt my work..sometimes i also abit sianing..ha~~ but boh bian la..work is a part of our life..hmm...dunno what happen tmr...actually quite a lot of things needed to be prepared...but..the timing seems like still not wtih me yet..hopefull can finish by next week...
ah...heard that one of my colleague decided to leaving...even she is the latest who thinking to leave but she is the first who leaving...really glad to heard that...she finally leave..when me turn...when me turn........~~~~~i wann leave....today i revised my resume...thinking even i wrote up how wonderful of my job...but it is better to mentioned what i want of my job..hopefully for news next week la...heeeee..~~ all the best...to me....wahaha.....

team team team

一个好的团队是如何构成的， 好团队的架构是如何形成的， 每个人都有每个人的方法， 世界上有许许多多非常强的团队，这些队伍拥有最佳的人员，最佳的能力，最有效率的工作态度，但，最重要的，不外乎是需要一名能御驾这班精英的领导者，领导者的能力不是由他的工作表现而被选定的， 而是他说具备的如何带领团队，如何的有能者居之， 为才善用， 就像是汉高祖刘邦，虽非人中之龙凤，却可以击败楚霸王开创后世人人称颂的丰功伟业， 到现在好是有人以汉人自居。
jz now saw alots of photos ...cheng...jaimie....lily...joe...hmm...these photo bring me bk to last time..when everyone is around...so happy..also remind the how the otc been build...unstuffing the goods from container...every shipment 200ctns..this is not trying to hao lian..but in fact..i was juz too miss that time..even fire fighting everyday..even acceptable...understand it cannot come bk...while the time being...i will leaving also..good team is build up by time...by love...by everyone..this is my wishers team...

spirit to..

sometimes i was jz wondering why i cannot wake up earlier for work...this is very costly if take cab...btw, recently i started to wake up earlier...take mrt n bus to work..finally i realised what happen, i think i got some sickness...especially when peanut around...my spirit level will going to bottom..when he is not around...my spirit is up up up..so...the conclusion should be i dun wan..or i dare not face him...mayb i jz want to escape from him...to release my soul..i am too tention when facing to him...well..i still trying to recovering this problem...is gd that knowing the problem so can overcome it..seems like he is my ke xing after joining spl.hahah~~i will..i will overcome this problem..i surely will..and i surely will leave this industry..i am sure...

finally..

Finally...took more than 6hours flight and finally..home sweet home...the hot weather in japan caused me sun burn as well as our litter mushroom queen...sick some more...cough...a bit fever but should be fine..well..loei is working so have to wait her at home loh...these few day never sleep well...almost everyday hv to wake up at 5am ....shake man...just wondering why i can stand on it...anyway...we are survive...miss u dear..hehe...
well..recently did rejected few offers from agent...reject until i quite paiseh...but no choise la...sacrified for my litter mushroom queen...well..thing will be happen if it is really happen to u...so..not so worries about my next step since i believe..when the time for me to change...sure i will change...at least....in shimano got alot of memories that will be always in my mind..this time went to japan...meet alots of old fren..even just few minutes..i was so tough that they still can remember this bangla...ha~~but is quite pity that can't meet ong san...hmmm..well...fate la....
however huh....our litter jo seems like quite ...eh..not quite...is very long time never update her blog...she is so quiet...hmmm...maybe something was missing in action...haha~~
ok la...tmr going to work!! gambatte!!!!! also need to apply off n liew..go bk malaysia...miss my daugther so much!!! muack!!! heee..