spirit to..

sometimes i was jz wondering why i cannot wake up earlier for work...this is very costly if take cab...btw, recently i started to wake up earlier...take mrt n bus to work..finally i realised what happen, i think i got some sickness...especially when peanut around...my spirit level will going to bottom..when he is not around...my spirit is up up up..so...the conclusion should be i dun wan..or i dare not face him...mayb i jz want to escape from him...to release my soul..i am too tention when facing to him...well..i still trying to recovering this problem...is gd that knowing the problem so can overcome it..seems like he is my ke xing after joining spl.hahah~~i will..i will overcome this problem..i surely will..and i surely will leave this industry..i am sure...